Monday, July 20, 2009

The 10 Commandments of Music

While browsing through articles from a music digest I subscribe to, I came across this. I think it gives EXCELLENT advice for artists. To all my hyper-sensitive Christians, no, I don't find it blasphemous. It creatively makes 10 great points. :)

The 10 Commandments Of Music 2.0


  1. Thou Shalt Not Worship False Prophets - Neither a record deal or auto-tune are your saviors.

  2. Thou Shalt Worship Only One God - He (or she) is called The Fan.

  3. Thou Shalt Giveaway Free Music - Like Jesus and the loaf of bread, give your flock a gift that multiplies as they pass it around.

  4. Thou Shalt Not Steal - Borrowing a beat is one thing, but stealing…

  5. Thou Shalt Blog - Your flock wants to know what you’re doing.

  6. Thou Shalt Create Profiles - Wherever your flock may go, you must be there.

  7. Thou Shalt Upload Photos - Staged, unstaged, backstage, from the stage and at every stage of a project.

  8. Thou Shalt Upload Videos - Longs Ones. Shorts Ones. Tall ones…you get the idea.

  9. Thou Shalt Share Thy Bounty. Share gigs. Share ideas. Share with your fans.

  10. Do Unto Others As You Would Have Others Do Unto You - You meet the same people on the way down that you did on the way up.
By: Nis Bogvad

Take care!

Shanelle Gabriel

Get a free download of my remake of Drake's "Best I Ever Had" at www.shanellegabriel.com/music and http://shanellegabriel.bandcamp.com

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Original Article:
http://nisbogvad.wordpress.com/2009/07/06/the-10-commandments-of-music-2-0/

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Free Download/ Listen to My Version of Drake's "Best I Ever Had"

Check out my new track. It's a remake of Drake's "Best I Ever Had." I'm trying to make you all replace his version with mine! Free download at http://shanellegabriel.bandcamp.com

<a href="http://shanellegabriel.bandcamp.com/track/best-i-ever-remix">Best I Ever... (Remix) by Shanelle Gabriel</a>

Chorus:
I do a bit of everything
And all I ever wanted
Is to do it real big
Bigger than they've ever done it
Put y'all on to new stuff
One day y'all gon' thank me for it
I'ma last forever
I put blood and sweat and tears on it

Cause I hold it down
Every time I hit a note
And when I write, it's like my soul was in the middle of it
I bless the mic and ya gotta give it up
So you say the same thing every single time

You say, "Nell-E, you the best"
"Nell-E, you the best"
"Nell-E, you the best"
"Nell-E, you the best"
"Best I ever heard"
"Best I ever heard"
"Best I ever heard"
"Best I ever heard"

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Superhead Movie: "Kiss and Tail- The Hollywood Jumpoff"



I'm actually interested in seeing this movie. Not for obvious reasons, but as a female in the entertainment industry, I am confronted with what some men consider "opportunities to get ahead," and I'm curious to know how a woman could utilize that to further her career.

I remember speaking to a well-known producer in the biz about how a certain R&B artist was known for sleeping her way to the top. I said, "That's terrible, and to me, it's an insult to my craft if I have to use sex to get ahead. My talent and personality should be enough." His response was, "Sis, you do what you have to do. I'm not saying I get down like that, but the way I see it, most women are gonna give it up to some broke dude in the hood that they happen to be dating or some cat that will only be in your life for 3 months. At least make who you have sex with count."

He was dead serious.

Makes sense? I guess. But for someone like me who WON'T give it up to some dude in the hood or some cat in my life for two seconds, this wouldn't apply to me. While many people know me for poetry, understand that I focused on my singing career way before Def Poetry Jam. I used to be the only female in all these studios, at the rap showcases, and with all these guys around. It took a while for me not to be surprised when guys who wanted me to sing a hook on a track switched it up to trying to get down. Once a guy introduced me to Sizzla as "Shanelle, she sings...oh and she's legal. *wink*"

I wish that things weren't that way, and that females can get a head not because they give it. The ones that do make it hard for the ladies like myself who are insulted when someone looks past their talent and sees them as just another chick to screw. Fellas, come on. At least let us RECORD something THEN talk about you and I. lol.

One thing that Karrine said that I agree with is that, "You can only sleep your way to the bottom." While a select few have made it pretty far, understand that if sex got you there, the moment someone new comes along who offers the same thing, you're gone. I don't know if that message will come across in this movie, but from what I know, Karrine Stephans a.k.a. SuperHead learned that the hard way.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Shanelle's Blast: Partying it up in July [Birthday Show- 7/8 + Nuyorican - 7/17]

Hello all!

I write this email blast to you a year older than the last one! Thank you to all the people on Facebook and Twitter who wished me well on the anniversary of my birth. I have two opportunities for you to celebrate with me: One is for the 21 and up crowd & the other is for all ages.

(Also, save the date: Yours truly will be performing at Club Santos on August 7th! More info to come!)

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New York, NY- July 8th, 2009 @ 6:30 PM

While my actual birthday is June 27th, I'm celebrating it on July 8th at the ever-so lovely Negril Village Rhum Lounge. It'll be a night filled with 3 things I love: performing, dancing, and cool people. Come celebrate and rock out with me and my band. No charge at the door, so bring me a gift. J/K. Your presence is a gift.

Negril Village
70 West 3rd Street

Bet. Thompson and LaGuardia
New York, New York 10012
Cost: Free


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New York, NY- Friday, June 17th, 2009 @ 9:30PM

For all my under 21 folk who can't make the party, come out to the hottest place for poetry in NYC and see me feature at the legendary Nuyorican Poets Cafe. I'll be sharing new poetry, so come and hear it first. Doors open at 10pm, but get there early. It gets PACKED quick!

Nuyorican Poets Cafe
236 East 3rd Street

New York, NY
Cost: $7


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Stay Blessed!

Shanelle Gabriel

www.shanellegabriel.com

www.twitter.com/shanelleg

Friday, June 19, 2009

New Poem/Song? "Heart Speaks"

I wrote most of this a while back, but my heart told me to revise it. Here you go.

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HEART SPEAKS

When the sun isn't shining
It's hard for raindrops to turn into rainbows
When life is out of place it's hard to find
Where the silver lining goes

When it's silent around you
It's hard to turn a deaf ear
To the loneliness whispering that
No one around you cares

When you bend to much for everyone
You tend to break
When you're too cautious
It's so easy to make a fatal mistake
When you think it's all figured out
You'll find a piece is missing
When you get everything you want
You still can't stop wishing

So when is it enough
When will it be enough
To settle down?
I'm looking for the missing part of me
Trying my best to do what's best for me
Will I ever be complete?
I'm waiting to hear my heart speak.

I'm sending my prayers up
Praying for an answer to come down
Preaching to the lost
When I'm the one who needs to be found

Doubting my intuition
Even though it's always right
Holding myself back
When I know I'm meant to reach great heights.

How am I trying to change the world
When I need to change myself
Want to do this on my own
Yet I know I need help
But it seems easier to rely only on self
Cause you've been let down so much by everyone else

But no one reached great heights
Without standing on some shoulders
I've climbed some mountains in my life
But I'm struggling with boulders
One day it'll all make sense
I guess when I'm much older
But for now I'm fighting
To keep my heart from growing colder

So when is it enough
When will it be enough
To settle down?
I'm looking for the missing part of me
Trying my best to do what's best for me
Will I ever be complete?
I'm waiting to hear my heart speak.


I can hear it talking to me
Talking to me
I hear it saying "listen to me, listen to me"
I hear it saying "trust me, trust me"
It's telling me to believe in me, believe in me.

Now I've had enough
It is enough
Time to settle down
I've found the missing part of me
I'm gonna be the best me I can be
In myself I can be complete
But it's okay to need company.
The hurt, I can set free.
My past is what made me.
I recognize when my heart speaks.

I listen when my heart speaks
I act when my heart speaks
When God speaks to me my heart speaks.

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Copyright © 2009 Shanelle Gabriel
Do not reproduce without Shanelle Gabriel's permission. Thanks!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

My Birthday Wish List...

I doubt I'll get half this stuff, but in a perfect world, for my birthday this year (June 27th), I'd open my eyes and see this:


1) The KODAK Zi6 Pocket Video Camera so I can keep up on my blogging and my posts.

2) A certificate for 3 months of guitar lessons.
I have the guitar, just need a few lessons to get it down.

3) Tickets to No Doubt's concert on June 26th.
My most favoritest band ever is performing at PNC Bank Arts Center in Holmdel, NJ!


4) Cash money always works and I'm not talking about Lil Wayne & dem. :)
They can be in envelopes that say: "Studio Time" or "Logo" (cause I need one) "Promotional Stuff" or "Travel Expenses." Shoot, a gas gift card works!


AND MY BIGGEST WISH...

5) A packed house at my birthday party/performance at Negril Village
July 8th, 2009

Come out to my free show at 70 West 3rd Street between LaGuardia and Thompson.
Doors open at 6pm, show starts at 7pm.
You get to hear some of my new music/poetry with my live band and have some cake.
Afterwards, we party the night away to the sounds of a great DJ!

Friday, May 22, 2009

My dope Photoshoot

I was on Facebook one random night when I got a message from a friend of a friend named Abasi. He asks if I model. I say yes, but I don't do it often. He asks if we could possibly do a shoot together since he's a photographer. Looking at the outdated photo on my business cards and my website, I check his other work out, and I agree. I get to the point. "Set it up, tell me when and where, and I'll make myself available." Surprisingly he gets back to me a few days later. Through our contacts, we put together a team, and a photoshoot was born.

We set the scene at Stir Lounge in NYC. Abasi brings in Jolene Phillips to assist him with photography and lighting. I phoned my friend Dennine Dyer to be my stylist, and she brings her friend Martin as an assistant. My make-up artist was Tracy Pairis. Praise God, she was a hair stylist. (My regular hairdresser chose this week to come down with the flu, sigh.) While playing my iPod's Hotness playlist (which includes "All That I Can Say" by Mary J, "Be Ok" by Chrisette Michelle, "Exposed" by Wayna, "As" by Stevie, and many more), we put together three different looks. I love being doted on and fussed over.



A few of the items used in accentuating my beauty...

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Tracy doing my make-up. She's niiiice with it!
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Finally dressed, with the help of Dennine. Just putting the finishing touches on the first look.

We did two more looks before we wrapped up for the day. Here's a quick video. (Notice the fly eye shadow). :)



Check back next time for the photos! :)

Stay Blessed

Saturday, May 16, 2009

When Spring Becomes Mating Season...


Tis the season...It's Spring, and birds are chirping, pollen is flying, and exes are a'calling. Spring seems to be mating season for humans as well as our animal kingdom subjects. If your number has stayed the same, trust that old flames and even old sparks will be looking to re-ignite. Why? Beats the heck out of me! Maybe the warm(er) weather makes people remember good old times, or maybe folk want to make sure they have a boo to take to the annual 4th of July BBQ. So what do you do? Jump back into their arms or raise your arms?

1) Consider WHY they're calling
You two haven't spoken since '94. Where'd this sudden interest come from? Loneliness? Boredom? An excerpt from the season finale of "Scrubs" that reminded them of you? Did you two have a really good time before, and they were just reminiscing? Or are they realizing that they're getting older, need to settle down with SOMEONE, and you're the best candidate from their past? Be cautious when old flames call around the time of their birthdays; they may be going through their little black book looking for someone to wife up since they just turned 30 and have no new prospects for marriage. Or they may be getting pressure from their parents (and/or church congregation) to "find a nice girl/boy" and settle down. "What about ___? She/he was such a sweetheart." Don't let yourself end up just another part of someone's 3 year plan.

2) What was the reason you two lost touch in the first place?
Was there an earnest connection that may have come at the wrong time? Were you seeing someone back then who's now no longer in the picture? Or did he or she have some severe issues (throwing your phone out the window, hemming you up, or offering a wedding ring after the first date)? If there was a reason back then, will it happen again? People change, but some basic things stay the same. Make sure you're not walking right back into the same drama you ran from before.

3) Use Your Present Judgement
You may not be the same person you were 5-10 years ago. What made you compatible then may not work now. For many, dating in high school only really required good conversation and the newest pair of Jordans on your feet. Now, does he still only wear Jordans? Or can he put on a shirt and tie every now and then? Is she employed or still waiting on Prince Charming to take her out the hood? The thing that super-glued you two together may be the rubber that keeps you both apart. Treat this like a new dating prospect. Get to know them NOW without clinging to memories from BACK THEN. Hold them to the same standards you'd put on someone you met a few days ago who's trying to be a part of your life.

4) If You're Going to Proceed, Keep the Past in the Past
If you decide that that old flame could be your Olympic Torch, you are promising that any bad feelings or negative thoughts from your previous encounter will NOT show up in the present. You are forfeiting your right to throwing the reason you separated before in his/her face, making qualitative statements like "you always do that, remember back in 2001...", and you are not allowed to hold the past against them in any way. You are dating them for who they are now. I suggest you clear the air before you start to get serious, and throw all that out the window once and for all.

5) Don't Be Afraid to Say, "Hell Nah!"
I recently received a phone call from an ex who I hadn't spoken to in ages who asked if I ever thought about us. I told him no, and realized once he said he thought Andre 3000 was whack, that we could NEVER EVER be together. Realize that if you don't want to go there, you don't have to. You are allowed to have a nice conversation, get all nostalgic and misty-eyed, clear up past misunderstandings, and catch-up a bit. You can even do it over a bite to eat. Why not? It's all in the past. But if the other person wants to try again, feel free to say, "Hell nah!" You are not obligated to try again because of the history you two have. That ship may have sailed its course. The saying goes "Forward ever, backward never." Be honest and upfront. If that's not what you want, don't lead them on into thinking they've got their childhood sweetheart back. Have a good time and keep it moving.

If you really, really don't want to deal with this, you can always change your number.
Verizon always welcomes new customers. :)

Stay Blessed!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

44 Random Things....

Every now and then, I get forwarded this lists...I doubt everyone will consider this BLOGWORTHY, but eh, what the heck. I'm cool. I'm interesting. So, here are my 44 random things. Feel free to cut & paste and send to your friends.

1. Do you like blue cheese?
Yes, but only with hot wings.

2. Have you ever been drunk?
Honestly, 2x. The first was an accident. The second...was an accident too. (How was I to know that Cosmos could do that to you? It's PINK!) Needless to say, I don't drink anymore.

3. Do you own a gun?
No. Don't want to be in a position to shoot anyone.

4. What flavor of Kool Aid was your favorite?
Classic...RED!

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
Nope. I don't worry unless they give me a reason to. Besides, I see a rheumatologist every month. She's like family.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
I just wonder what part of the cow do they come from.

7. Favorite Christmas movie?
He-Man and She-Ra's Christmas...or all the claymation movies (Rudolph & the others)

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Anything hot (I'm West Indian)

9. Can you do push ups?
Now, like 2. I used to be able to do like 15 when I was younger.

10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
These long earrings that I wear pretty often.


11. Favorite hobby?
Talking on the phone...other than that, I love reading. I'm a nerd.

12. Do you have A.D.D.?
Depends on what I'm doing, while I'm doing what I'm doing.

13. What's your favorite shoe?
My brown boots from Aldo...or my black & gold Guess pumps. Ooooh, I love shoes.

14. Middle name?
Tekeisha (A lil hood there.)

15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
Maybe I should reconsider my opinions of the person I'm on the phone with; What am I doing this week; Why didn't my friend call me back?

16. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
Water, Redbull Cola, Rice Milk

17. Current worry?
Whether I over-think everything

18. Current hate right now?
People that get upset if you don't follow them on Twitter, but they NEVER update their status. Why would I want to follow you if you have nothing to say?

20. How did you bring in the New Year?
At the T-Pain/Lil Wayne Concert with my sister, Michelle, in Atlanta, GA. Gym Class Heroes and T-Pain killed it.

21. Where would you like to go?
Japan, Spain, and a warm beach with clear, waters.

22. Name three people who will complete this?
Not sure. Don't care.

23. Do you own slippers?
Yep. Yellow with ducks, and when you squeeze the duck on top it quacks. :)

24. What color shirt are you wearing right now?
Black.

25. Do you like sleeping on Satin Sheets?
I'm more concerned with the mattress.

26. Can you whistle?
Yes

27. Favorite color?
Green

28. Would you be a pirate?
Nope, I'd be a mermaid.

29. What songs do you sing in the shower?
Whatever comes to mind. The tub is my stage!

30. Favorite Girl's Name?
Nia = "Purpose" in Swahili

31. Favorite boy's name?
Don't have one. I'll let my husband choose the name for our son.

32. What's in your pocket right now?
My pajama pants don't have pockets

33. Last thing that made you laugh?
Obama's speech from yesterday. He's hilarious.

34. Best bed sheets as a child?
Rainbow Brite

35. Worst injury you've ever had as a child?
I skinned my knee sliding on my make-shift third base on my concrete front yard.

36. Do you love where you live?
Um, I love the people that live here.

37. Who is your loudest friend?
Define "loud;" Define "friend" because none of my friends are loud.

39. How many dogs do you have?
0

40. Does someone have a crush on you?
A few people, but probably not the people I want to have a crush on.

41. What is your favorite book?
The Alchemist by Paul Coelho

42. What is your favorite candy?
Fun Dip (dipping a sugar stick in flavored sugar.)

43. Favorite Sports Team?
Not the Knicks. If I stayed a Knicks fan after 1998, I'd have killed myself by now.

44. What song do you want played at your funeral?
"Heaven" by James Hall

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Day 26 Album Release Party & DJ Kool Herc's Birthday Party

It's April 14th and drizzling. This is the day my homegirl, Rosie a.k.a. "BadAssBrunette" from DTF Radio hits me up on Twitter saying, "We've got places to be tonight. I'll text you so you know where we're going." This leads up to two events, one so-so event with a lot of familiar faces, and another super-cool birthday party that closed up the night with a BANG!

First stop, Day 26's album release event at the Ed Hardy Store.

A sista hit up the red carpet. It was too darn cold to be taking off my jacket, especially with a gig the next day. Can't afford to get sick. lol.


Rosie and I are welcomed to an open bar of Nuvo, and a decent crowd of people. The organization of the store wasn't the best for an event like this, and I kept envisioning people pocketing hats and swiping clothes from the store after this event. I run into my good friend Mr. Red from I.B. Concept Magazine (He did a feature on me a while back). After hearing him talk about a wedding ring he swears is in the shop (joking), I continue to mingle. I tap a familiar face, only to realize it's Miguel Perdomo, a Sean John model I'd met at an event a while back. He's cool peoples (and very handsome, I must say). It was nice to parle with him and another model named Zenel who's modeled for Tommy.



I also saw my friend Quantum Leap (dope rapper), my Soror Sandrine C. on her PR grind, Mimi (fashionista/creator of http://www.mimiphxafropuffzfumi.blogspot.com), Eddie Shades from Talk of NY, and several other folks that run things in their field of expertise. The crowd gets thick by 12am, and Dawn (the sole member of Danity Kane) shows up. She's cuter on TV. Day 26 got in rather late, as they're supposed to, I guess. Could have but didn't sweat getting pictures with them; left that to my homegirl Rosie. She got all the shots especially since she's interviewed them on DTF Radio (shoutout the VIP Pass Show). Well, that was it for Day 26. On to the next event.

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After grabbing a slice to eat just off West 3rd Street, we head to Sutra Lounge in Lower East Side, Manhattan for DJ Kool Herc's Birthday Party.

Sutra brings back memories to me; when I first started doing poetry, Culture Shock Mondays Open Mic was held here. To see it as a jumping party spot is amazing to me.

We walk inside and it's PACKED! The DJ line-up is crazy. DJ Evil Dee, DJ Scratch, DJ are all taking turns on the ones and twos. The birthday boy even got on the mic and turntables. It was great seeing him and several other Hip Hop Icons.






Ran into a few dancers I knew who were having their own private dance party in the middle of the dance floor. The event had such an old school vibe; it was excellent. Rosie and I hung out with DJ Scratch for the rest of the night. A real cool dude. We finally bounced at 2:30am, just as the crowd was starting to die down.

Nights like these make me remember what true Hip Hop was about...expression, love, and fun. From breakdancing to emceeing to graffiti, Hip Hop was always meant to be felt. I definitely felt the love that night at that party, more than I felt at the Day 26 event. The bougieness and 'exclusivity' can get tiring very quickly. DJ Kool Herc's party had no VIP section, no real dresscode, no red carpet, and the stars all realized they're actually REAL PEOPLE.

As I plan my birthday party for June 27th, I hope to have the same vibe for my special day.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DJ KOOL HERC
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CONGRATS DAY 26 ON THE NEW ALBUM

Random Entertaining Photos

I know, I suck...

I haven't been keeping up with my blog, but I vow to be better.

Now, this blog is going to highlight the randomness of the streets and public transportation systems. Who says you have to pay for entertainment?

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This was outside the Bowling Green train station near my gym. Times are hard for everyone, even for guys that like to wear Panda suits. Whatever happened to the days of working for a lil extra cash?

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This is more like it. A GIFTED pianist in the West 4th Street train station. One question: How the heck did he get the piano down there???

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Driving in Queens, NY. I think it was a protest against the war, but I definitely was lost at first. Keep in mind, this is in front a shopping center with no funeral home in sight.

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Look who I stumbled upon preaching in downtown Houston, TX. And I thought they only existed on Fulton Street, Brooklyn and in Times Square.

Well don't want to kill you with too many photos. Just love the randomness. :)

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

New Poem: Untitled I

Words seep from my lips to your heart
My spirit speaks to your soul
Leaking secrets like faucets
We tell each other things that have never been told
Days feel like months
Months like years
They say absence makes the heart grow fonder
But distance forged the connection that's there
Sneaking peaks at photos stolen
From online albums
Studying the place where Cancers and Taureans peacefully intertwine
Yet and still
I hear the phrase I know so well
"It's not the right time"
You feel perfection should wait for stars to align
For sundials to linger on new marks
Wait for the beaches to be funneled empty of sand
My tears whisper on your bare chest
Saying I'll always be there
Ignoring the fear that creeps
Like shadows tiptoeing on windowsills
Ignoring the murmuring
Warning me to be trepidatious
When bartering lust for hopes of love
I'm scared I've already made you mine in my eyes
Claimed you like my birthright
Like we were meant to give birth to the right type of love
Built on friendship, honesty, pleasure, and trust
I'm here at the right time to show you how wrong
Every other female was for you
Willing to up my frequent flier miles for you
So we can be United
Through US Airways
Use Delta to change your perception of expressing emotion
Our love could span the world
It could be Continental
And I Amtrack-ing down all potential ways to keep
Our future together on the Frontier
You've become necessary to my day
Healthy like an apple a day
I need you like Centrum
You're complete to me
If only I could ingest you daily
This way you could stay a part of me
Time and space need to bend for destiny
While I don't know what you see
I see hour hands fluttering
Moving at light-speed during nights we speak
"The right time" is relative
If you see something worth cherishing
Grab hold before it perishes
Because everything has a beginning
And in this situation
You determine how this ends
The perfect blend of lovers and friends
While whispers of worries work their way into your heart
I hope you'll help me hinder their existence with kisses
Let me take them apart
What you name bad timing
I won't take as rejection
I hope this vision of near perfection
Is not just a mental projection
A figment of my imagination
Or an image to be cropped
Out of my mind
For now my watch has stopped
I'm living in the now
Time will tell us the future
Just don't let time dictate when or how.


Copyright 2009 Shanelle Gabriel
Not to be re-posted or printed without the permission of the author

Monday, April 27, 2009

Minister Farrakhan blasts Mike Wallace on 60 min

I do not believe in all of Farrakhan's teachings...But he definitely brought up some excellent points. I know I am late with this, but it's a great tongue-lashing to anyone who talks trash about the countries around them. America has had a holier-than-thou approach to the rest of the world. And with discussions on water-boarding and torture methods, this video is applicable today.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

If You're Not Dolled Up, Will People Still Listen?

It's the end of rehearsal for a performance I and two other poets are doing at a local high school. We're performing some of the kids poetry from a friend's writing class, and it's run by theater folk. (Side-note: while many poets see aspects of theater in their performance, theater folk tend to be more 'technical' and dwell on how the two genres are soooo NOT alike.) We're there talking about what we'll wear to unify the show. Dark jeans, shoes, colored top. Fine.

So as I and the other 2 poets leave rehearsal, the female poet (Eboni) reveals to me that the head of the theater program said to her, "You should let your hair down and wear make-up because you're really such a pretty girl. Keep in mind, the boys here are used to seeing women a certain way, you know, from TV and videos. You should dress up, so at least if they don't catch your words, they'll still pay attention." Yes, Women's Liberation has come to this.

Now, it makes me go "Hmm," because I know I don't dress to turn on little boys in high school. My words work very well, and any rudeness is not tolerated. I come from a long line of women who strike fear in the hearts of children everywhere. Make-up or not, they are going to listen. But to suggest that the exterior be used in such a way shows the problem with what society deems as a "female performer." If you don't appeal to the lower regions of a man, can you be taken seriously? Can you be sure that you have their full attention? I know that we're a society that focuses on aesthetics, but is the message ignored if the messenger isn't bejeweled and glittering?

Makes me want to put on some Timbs, a tank top, some overalls and complete with boxers, 1992- TLC style. I'll wear that, jump on stage, and perform "A Message to My Girls" and see if anyone takes me seriously.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

The Prototype...The Joy Of New Loves

Spring is here, and new love is in the air. The beginning stages of something new is always beautiful. I'm absolutely addicted to Andre 3000's "Prototype," because it speaks on this and has such a smooth vibe to it.

"I hope that you're the one....If not, you are the prototype. We'll tiptoe to the sun, and do thangs, I know you'd like. I think I'm in looooove again."
-"Prototype"- Andre 3000 from "The Love Below"

Let's all think back to the days when you first met that special someone, whether they are still present in your life or they've gone on with theirs. It's those moments walking holding hands through a park, laughing at randomness on the phone, the moments where you both realized that you felt the same way about each other- these moments make us want to fall in love again and again, even when we know that love doesn't always work out.

Many people close their hearts to the new experience, faulting past hurts and blaming previous relationships for the bitterness and skepticism they hold like concrete around their hearts. But by not realizing that people come into your life for a reason and a season and by focusing on WHAT WENT WRONG, they miss out on the times to smile at and new possibilities of smiling. Maybe he or she wasn't or isn't the one, but they could very well be the prototype of the one to come:
Pro·to·type 1 : an original model on which something is patterned.
This new prospect may just be "The One"...or they can lead you to the person you are meant to be with. They can show you the true you as well as give you an idea of what qualities you would want in"The One." This doesn't only relate to romantic relationships but friendships as well. Be open to new loves and people to love. It's okay to fall in love a few times; third, fourth, or eighth time is a charm. The risk is well worth it. Enjoy love in the here and now, and remember to say "stank you smelly much" to the person standing right in front of you now who's waiting to see if they could be that special friend to you.

(LISTEN TO "PROTOTYPE" BY CLICKING ON THE VIDEO BELOW)

Thursday, March 26, 2009

My Trip To Atlanta (Highlights) - PART TWO

Hey y'all! I'm fittin' ta give y'all the highlights of my recent trip to tha A!!!! Atlanta, GA. It included shows, a conference, and hanging with my lovely sister Michelle, my mom, grandma, and my grand father. Here are the highlights.

PART TWO


Had a great feature on www.blogtalkradio.com/newd. We spoke and joked about female esteem in the arts & media as well as general relationship issues, featuring a live performance by yours truly. Check it out:
http://www.blogtalkradio.com/newd/2009/03/22/NEWDradio-Black-American-Repatriation-to-South-Africa

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While dining with my sister, I remembered how much I love strawberry cheesecake from the Cheesecake Factory. I know, I'm supposed to be loyal to Juniors but...


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Went to a Kappa Alpha Psi Fraternity, Inc Crossing Party at some club. No, friends, I didn't bag anyone or get any numbers. (I think my brain is starting to be preoccupied with someone else, but that's another story that I'm keeping to myself...)

One thing I love about the South- while I'm a pretty good dancer in New York, I'm like "The Dancehall Queen" everywhere else! When reggae comes on, I'm one of the few that can do all the dances. Kinda makes you feel extraordinary.

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I just love Super Wal-Mart. I went there pretty much every day.

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My sister took me to this rather hood club called Esso. I thought I was in Brooklyn for two seconds. We were there at 10:30pm because it was free before 11:30. However, they didn't let people in till 11:35. Trifiling.

While waiting on line, this girl walked by wearing a green, yellow, white, and black mixed print tank top...with matching print spandex pants. She looks like the old school 3-D puzzle with a hidden picture that you have to hold close to your face and pull away to see the picture. I wish I got a picture of her. I'm sure that in the club, no guy could holla at her; she looked like a blur.

Question: Why does the awkward, drunk White guy at the Black club always pick the biggest Black woman to jump behind and dance with?

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Went to Ten Pin Alley for my Soror Kristy's birthday party. Realized that after 10pm, no one's bowling...because it turns into a club! Chicks were rocking tight, short dresses; they had me feeling like I was wrong for being casual at the bowling alley. Kristy had a DOPE birthday cake! I didn't even want her to cut it.


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One morning, some lady, with a Hatian accent that even my Flatbush, Brooklynite-self couldn't decipher, calls me saying, "The guy u texted this morning lives with a woman. Keep that in mind." WTH? I texted two people that morning, so I was confused. One of them was my Phrat brother to wish him happy birthday, the other a childhood friend. When I asked her who she was talking about, she said, "I'm telling you this woman-to-woman. He doesn't live with his mom or family, he lives with a WOMAN. Keep that in mind." I think I get phonecalls like these waaaay too often.

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I used my mom's guest pass to go to the gym. LA Fitness isn't my Crunch, but it'll have to do. Lil Scrappy walked by me at the gym, getting his workout on while I'm on the elliptical machine. Man he has some bad teeth!
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I saw these at a shopping center. Yo, you can be so gansta that even your slippers are hood!


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I swear, it seems like the weather always gets amazingly beautiful the day you have to leave a place. I was very sad to leave Atlanta.

On the way to my gate, the airport security guard leaned over his podium, checked my ID, and said,"You're finer than a mutha****er." Really? When a guy curses in his compliment, is it still a compliment?

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

My Trip To Atlanta (Highlights) - PART ONE

Hey y'all! I'm fittin' ta give y'all the highlights of my recent trip to tha A!!!! Atlanta, GA. It included shows, a conference, and hanging with my lovely sister Michelle, my mom, grandma, and my grand father. Here are the highlights.


PART ONE

I got to meet my grandfather for the first time. He came down from Canada to visit all of us. He's one smooooooth dude.

My mom and Grandfather (he loves his shades)



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Man, my mom can cook!


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Finally saw Madea Goes to Jail. Why were Keisha Knight Pullam's teeth so straight and pearly white? It really bothered me that she can look all dirty and busted as a prostitute but still be fit for an Orbitz gum commercial.

While at the theater, I discussed my legal situation (which I promise to blog this week) with a cop that was on duty. I realized how much anger I am holding toward the justice system.


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I showcased at the Association for the Promotion of Campus Activities (APCA) National Conference. I did extremely well, and got a lot of great potential college bookings for 2009 on. (Looking to be added to the list? Hit me up at shanellegabriel@gmail.com)

A gentleman from the military who's stationed in Korea walked up to the booth I was at, opened my hand, and gave me a heavy, bronze medallion stating that it was for the positive message I'm sharing through my work. I almost cried.



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While attempting to park near a diner downtown, a random crackhead ran full speed from across the street, jumped behind my car, and whether I wanted him to or not, proceeded to direct me into the parking space. Between ticks and twitches his long arms would motion 'back up' and 'stop.'

I got out of the car, and amidst his babbling to himself, he walks up to me with a shriveled up flower he must have picked from the front of someone's house. I refuse to take it, stating, "No thank you. It doesn't match my outfit." (People that are "off" make me nervous.) He then asked for some money (for his thorough help with parking and the flower offer). I didn't have cash on me. He got mad and walked away. People keep saying, "That coulda been an angel." Well that angel should get an Oscar for playing a crackhead so well.


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I went to Old School Saturdays, a party that happens once a month, where the DJ plays nothing but the best in Hip Hop/R&B from 1980-2000. (Still bugging out because Lil' Kim is old school. That felt like it was yesterday!)


Me and my lovely sister



After we left, I was joking around singing "Stanky Leg" all loud; I looked out the car window and saw a man in a wheelchair with one leg. I felt bad cause he couldn't do the dance too.

[Look for Part 2 tomorrow]

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

In Atlanta...Examining My Grandparents

Just when I was ready to pull my hair in NYC, it was time for my trip to Atlanta, GA ! My grandfather came in from Toronto, Canada, I have to perform at the Association for the Promotion of Campus Activities Nationals, and I also have a show at The Urban Grind this week. Then, I'm stopping by Apache on Sunday to check my homegirl, Queen Sheba, out there. It's been great so far.

It's my first time meeting my grandfather on my biological mother's side. Honestly, I'm so used to seeing frail elderly grandfathers, that he shocked me. He was so alert, so talkative, and so down! He cracked jokes, talked about his younger years like it was yesterday, and even had an in depth discussion on sex ("Men need to know how to please their women.") Praise God I wasn't there for that. Lol.

I watched my grandmother, his first wife, interact with him. At the beginning, I heard she was mean towards him, making comments about how old he looked (as if she was a spring chicken) and a few others. Then she eased up, and seemed to get comfortable. Real comfortable...She started taking longer to get ready, making sure her hair was combed out, and a few other details that let the rest of us know she was trying to look her best for "someone." She'd sit and converse with him for most of the day. Imagine, they were divorced over 30 years ago, and she still has a little somethin' somethin' for him. We tend to think that older folks just deteriorate into asexual beings who no longer care about past issues and loves.

I wonder, will I be that type of older person who can still relate to my younger self? Will there be anyone that will always strike a chord with me? And will I remain the passionate person I am forever or will old age add bitterness to my spirit?

Who we are now affects who we will be later. Our values, actions, and responses shape the way we lead the rest of our lives. If we are holding on to something now, we will cling to it for dear life later, whether it's love, anger, regret, joy, sorrow. What are you going to be like when you're in your rocking chair on your front porch?
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Monday, March 9, 2009

BIG is NOT the Greatest Rapper of All Time (Brooklyn, don't hate me for saying this)

When did I first fall in love with Hip Hop?

I came to love Hip Hop and R&B in the 90s. (Don't worry, I made up for lost time and went back to the classics.) Growing up in Brooklyn, you were blessed with a certain swagger, street sense, and an appreciation for the gritty, rough tales told to you over hardcore beats. I fell in love with wordplay, had a crush on fruity looped beats, and lusted after the raw rhythmic flow that bum-rushed my ear drums whenever the radio turned on. I listened to WBLS 98.7 KISS FM (back when it played Rap music) and Hot 97 was my joint too. I remember making cassette mixtapes from recording off the radio. I'd pause and play songs as I wrote down lyrics in my notebook. One moment will always stand out to me:

I was trying to learn the blazing remix to Craig Mack's "Flava in Your Ear." The Notorious BIG was up first. I usually just wrote what I heard without thinking about it, but for some reason, I really looked at his verse.

"You're mad cause my style you're admiring/ Don't be mad, UPS is hiring...Not from Houston, but I Rap-A-Lot."


I paused the tape. "Wait, Rap-A-Lot Records is in Houston, Texas...OHHHHHH!!! That was dope!!!!" That was when I learned what being a lyricist was. I will give Biggie credit for that. Prior to hearing that verse, it was all beats and repeating what sounded good. That song, that verse caused the switch in my brain to click, and I saw the art in making metaphors and similes paint pictures in minds. Biggie was known for his gift at telling stories, and maybe that's part of why it's such a big part of me as an artist. I respect his truth, his honesty, and his title as one of the greatest Hip Hop artists in history.

I cannot say that I respect his honesty without being honest myself. As the human radio, I learned everything I deemed hot growing up, including most of "Life After Death" and tracks from "Ready 2 Die." My mental library contains other songs such as "Kick in the Door" as well as songs like Lil' Kim's "Big Momma Thang," "Put It in Yo Mouth" by Akinyele. There are many other songs as a Christian and a female, I should be ashamed to say I know. But ignorance does have its place, and so does entertainment. I know how to differentiate good from entertaining. So I take this time out to be disloyal to the Brooklyn blood that runs through my veins and say that in my opinion, BIG was NOT the greatest rapper of all time.

I say this for the same reason I say that Usher is not THE greatest dancer of all time. I can differentiate between extreme talent and being the best. In dancing, Michael Jackson and James Brown left a legacy of a different type of creativity. One that made people want to get better. One that made dancers want to transcend from being chitterling circuit superstars and move people everywhere- for the right reasons. While I love "Juicy" and "Sky's the Limit," I hear tracks like "Dead Wrong," and lines other lines like "Big Poppa never softening/ take you to the church/ rob the preacher of the offering/ leave a f***er coughing up blood." I as mentioned before, "Kick in the door/ waving the 4-4./ All ya heard was 'Poppa don't hit me no more.'" I can't deny the misogyny and violence that littered so much of his music.

Yes, I believe in telling your own story. Yes, I am all for freedom of expression, but if you are ignoring the part where you grow from what you used to be, I can't give you that title. There is more to being a lyricist than just wit. There is growth. There is an awareness of the world around them that doesn't spawn more of what oppressed them in the first place. Maybe he wasn't given the chance to grow, but I cannot ignore the monotony of negativity. I mean, even Mrs. Wallace has stated that she feels bad that she can't listen to her deceased son's music.

I do give props and praise for being creative with the art of creating a song. I think of Ludacris' "Ho" and the fast-tongued "Twisted Heat" by Drag-On and Twista. A unique attack and perspective in a song can make you look past compromising lyrics. "Notorious Thugs," "10 Crack Commandments," and "Dreams" were terribly dope songs. However, the title of greatest should go to someone who I believe best represents the art of rapping, and wields the power of their words with diligence and with honor. Decades from now, when someone asks, who holds the title of the Greatest Rapper of all time, I hope to be able to point them to someone without a preface or an apology. So as we honor BIG's memory, let's remember him as someone who fell before they could become the rapper that they could have been. Do not make the deceased appear a saint. He was not one. Still, his undeniable, "Unbelievable" talent is greatly missed. I sincerely wish he could be a part of Hip Hop in 2009.

Rest in Peace
Christopher Wallace aka The Notorious B.I.G.

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Young girl gets abused by cops in jail cell...

I'm trying not 2 generalize & hate all cops, but this girl getting beat inside a cell is crazy:

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Shanelle's Live Performance of "I Feel Like Going On" at The Nuyorican Poets Cafe

Thanks to Sarah for sending me this. This was on Jan 9th at the Semi-final Poetry Slam at the Nuyorican Poets Cafe in New York City.

Sunday, March 1, 2009

No Babies for Me...

...at least no time soon. I was browsing the net, and stumbled on the old story of 17 teen girls in a high school who made a pact to get pregnant...I heard the story on the news and tried to recall anything of this nature going on at the High School of Telecommunication Arts and Technology in Brooklyn, NY, where I graduated from. Um, nope, no recollection of anyone actually WANTING to get pregnant. It happened, but it wasn't on purpose. The idea of getting "knocked up" led to the fear of getting knocked out by our mothers, so a missed period wasn't a desirable outcome.

With all the advances in contraceptives, morning after pills, and condoms in schools, the teen pregnancy rate is crazy high. I recently had to explain to a 17 year-old girl reasons why she and her boyfriend should wait to have a baby, even though to me the simple fact that she's 17 was enough to me. Reasons such as "I think I'm ready," "I want that unconditional love that a baby can give," "I'm great with kids," and "I don't want to be an old mother," are not valid enough to lead to procreation.

What is misunderstood in this day and age is that parenting is difficult regardless of how easy your mom and dad and TV make it look. Babies are not dolls that you can show off, play with, then put them on a shelf when you're tired. They are sooo cute when you see them in someone's stroller- that cuteness ends when they've got you up at 3am just because they want to be rocked or when they're throwing tantrums during the "Terrible Twos". Or when you see that a can of baby formula is $15 and lasts three days, that a bag of diapers is $20 and lasts less than a week, and that just as quick as you bought that cute $20 outfit for the baby, he or she will outgrow it twice as fast. Or when you're stuck home because you can't find a babysitter while all your friends are headed to the nearest club/concert/hangout spot/diner. When you can't go on that study abroad trip to Japan during your college years because children aren't included in the price.

Children don't just come with love, they also come with responsibility. The interesting thing is that the "unconditional love" that these teens think kids bring is really one-sided for the most part of the child's life. YOU have to love him or her unconditionally, not necessarily visa versa. That baby is more concerned with having its needs met than how affectionate and loving it needs to be to its parents. (Wait till that bundle of joy is a teenager- that's when they may be convinced they hate you.)

I love children. My maternal instincts are impeccable, and I have been taking care of kids since I was one. I deeply congratulate all of my friends who are recent or soon-to-be parents: Kimberly E., Dave Judah, Chrissy, Dawn, and my friends who've been doing their mommy and daddy thang for a while (Monique, Serge, Kofi, Dorian, Shem, Kevon, Milton, and the LOOOOONG list of others). I sometimes envy the precious gift that you hold in your arms. I watch them grow and I am amazed. I can only imagine the pride you feel in knowing that you had some part in the creation of such a beautiful gift of life. HOWEVER, I have no problem living vicariously through you all till I have my own, till I am READY financially and mentally with a partner (meaning husband) and a place for us to all live. To quote my friend Marlon, "I'm not bringing a child into the world to struggle".

Lord knows, I'm not ready to decide between shoes and diapers, between a West Coast tour and a big purple dinosaur. The quicker we rush life, the sooner it ends.

I pray that I don't ever have to eat these words, but they are definitely my ideal. Salutations to all the parents out there. I tip my virgin strawberry-daquiri glass up to you. Much props and love. I'll join you...someday. Till then, cheers.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

PT Diaries...Entry #6: My Nosy, Happy Moment on the Train

I need a lil extra dose of Jesus on some occasions...and it seems lately, public transportation has caused me to need a gospel prescription. (This blog is completely random, I warn you, but then again, aren't blogs for venting?)

These are the PT (Public Transportation) Diaries:


I'm sitting on the 7 train heading to Queens. The car is pretty empty (I mean, who actually GOES to Queens nowadays? j/k ) While studying my poems for this project I have at Lincoln Center, I couldn't help notice a couple gushing over an accordion of photos.

I'm a New Yorker, and I'm a female. I'm predisposed to being nosy, so I look over to see what could be worth the cheese smiles and giggles. The woman moves her long black hair over her shoulder only for it to fall again at the edge of the photo. The Indian guy holds her around her shoulders with one hand and the other holds the end of the link of photos. I realize they are pointing at a row of black and white photos from an ultrasound. I smile with them at their beautiful moment. He kisses her on her cheek, and she giggles. As she leans her head on his shoulder, I lean mine on the back of my seat. I say a prayer of blessings on them, push the envy to the back of my cluttered mind, and thank her for the joyful addition to the world and my diary.

Monday, February 16, 2009

MovieLife.tv's Review (and revised trailer) for "Frost/Nixon"

SO THE CREW HERE AT MOVIE LIFE WERE EDITING THE REVIEW FOR FROST/NIXON AND WE REALIZED THAT WE ONLY HAD PARTS OF THE ORIGINAL TRAILER TO INCLUDE IN THIS REVIEW. SO WE PROCEED TO FILL IN THE BLANKS ...

Here's "Frost/Nixon"- Trailer plus review from Shaun Cruz, Shanelle Gabriel (and LaVarro in the peanut gallery.)

Shaq dancing with the Jabawockeez at the All-Star Game

Only Shaq would do this and get away with it...


Sunday, February 15, 2009

Not Easily Broken...My Ideas on Love

I went by myself to see the T.D Jakes movie, "Not Easily Broken," a movie about marriage, family, and forgiveness.

I come from a world where marriages disintegrate as soon as I dos are exchanged. Where married men aren't considered off the market because they never act like they are. I've seen the majority of the marriages around me fail, and most of the others just look so darn unhappy. My definition of marriage has been summed up into one word: Submission.

Submit your dreams, heart, passion, love, and life into the hands of someone who may not know what to do with it or may realize later on that they really don't want all of that. It's scary.

Both my biological parents have been married more than twice. The mother who raised me, once, and her one failed marriage seemed to have led her to raise the rest of her daughters to be strong women without the need of a man or anyone for that matter. She showed us how be independent, unmovable Black women, but not wives.

I remember being home from college one break and I asked her to wake me up one morning so I could learn how to cook. She asked me why. I thought it was a strange question, and I think my response was even stranger to her. I told her, "Well, one day I'll need to cook for my husband, so I should start learning now." She was silent for a moment, then replied, "Girl, just focus on your books." My mom had a way of ending conversations without much discussion, and that one was over. (Later she would say, "I meant that if you really wanted to learn, you would wake yourself up. But, I don't like people in the kitchen getting in my way.") Needless to say, I taught myself how to cook in college. My mommy taught me how to love everyone, how to be self-less, just not to a man. She is the most generous person I know, but after my dad, she refused to date, and clung to her kids.

Meanwhile, my biological mother and father both "had to kiss a few frogs to find their prince/princess." Both of their present spouses are absolutely perfect for them, but should it take so many bad situations to find your soul mate?

As I watched this movie, I thought about how my parents' marriages (and separations) trickled into my views on marriage. I recognize the extremes (one side being married numerous times and the other giving up after the first), and have created my own special blend. I never adhered to the idea that all men are selfish (although I've seen more than my share of selfish men), nor have I been one to ignore the flaws I see in an individual. As I watch my friends around me get married and pro-create, I'm forced to examine my ideas on the subject. I am, in fact, scared of marriage. And that leads to my trepidation when it comes to love. Disney fantasies never talk about whether Snow White and her prince stayed together forever or if the Prince tried to holla at Sleeping Beauty after Snow White gained a few pounds.

Amidst my skepticism, I watch the Obamas (the new ideal for 2009) and the few other happy, wholesome marriages, and I realize that I have to speak prosperity into my life. Cycles of dysfunction can be broken if we take the time to not repeat our parents' and their parents' and their parents' parents' mistakes. "Love" is one of those words spoken when someone seems to have SO MUCH in common with us like the love of cheesecake and the color green. There is more to love and marriage than the happy honeymoon phase. I've learned from those around me that truly loving someone isn't easy. There isn't a set way to be successful in a relationship. People are complex, so imagine how difficult a union between 2 people can be. Make sure that the person you choose to be with is worth the effort, the long talks, the prayers, the counseling, the disagreements, the annoyances, as well as the kisses, the hugs, the laughs, the fun, and the love. Make sure that God is the tie that binds you two together, not money, friends, or parents. That should equal out to a fulfilling relationship.

Let's break the cycle.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Q-Tip, J. Period Drop Free Mixtape 'The [Abstract] Best'

Best'Rapper/producer and former Tribe Called Quest front man Q-Tip is celebrated on a new mixtape produced in collaboration with DJ Period.

Titled The [Abstract] Best, J. Period's latest mixtape is a combination of tracks from Q-Tip's deep catalog, as well as remixes, interviews and new tracks from a list of popular MC's, who pay homage to the Queens, New York rap star. Busta Rhymes, De La Soul, Skillz, Talib Kweli, Prince Paul, Consequence, Pharoahe Monch, Black Thought, ?uestlove, Black Sheep, Kid Cudi, Blu and others are among the list of rappers featured on the mixtape, which was made available for free download today (February 10).

"I greatly appreciate the time and dedication J.Period has put into this mixtape," Q-Tip said of the collaboration. "He has pulled together an amazing group of contributing artists, and I am honored that my music has been inspirational to all of them. The feeling is mutual." The [Abstract] Best is the follow up to the track "Q-Tip for President," which their pair released in November in celebration of President Barack Obama.

Q-Tip's latest solo album The Renaissance is in stores now.

For the full story or to comment log on: http://www.allhiphop.com/stories/news/archive/2009/02/10/20847649.aspx
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Monday, February 9, 2009

I'm a convict...Nah I just got arrested yesterday.

I just had to share this experience. Trust me, a song or a poem is coming out of this. If you think it's too long, just read the paragraphs with the *s next to em. lol. I was venting. :)
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While everyone was enjoying the unseasonable, random warmth of yesterday (Sunday), yours truly was in a cell at the 71st Precinct. Some reckless kids and gangsta artists welcome trouble with the law as ways to up street credibility or inspiration. Nah. I was pissed!

*Imagine, my newly washed car glistening sun-rays off his hood. My car, Bobby, was looking on point, and so was his girl Shanelle. My cream turtleneck perfectly complimented my tortoise shell Burberry shades, the window was down, my make-up and hair was tight, blasting T.I.'s "Swing Ya Rag," I swear I was in a 90s So So Def music video. I was on my way to link with my booking rep to pick something up and then to see the movie Push with a fella friend of mine out in the city. I make a right turn (later I find out I breezed past a sign that said "No Right Turns"), and I get pulled over by a police VAN a lil past the corner of Flatbush and Empire.

*This is my first time being pulled over so I turn down my music, turn off the engine and roll my window down. Two officers approach the vehicle and one tells me of my bad turn. I suck it up as he takes my license and registration back to his van. I text my friend Lawrence about the situation, and he jokingly writes back:

"Damn! Look cute and take it on the chin. Don't let em take you to jail. Call me when it's over."

*I chuckle, then I hear the van door slam. I lean out the car window as I see 5 officers get out. As I think it, I say it, "Why are all of you getting out?" Oh gosh...Rodney King, Oscar Grant, Sean Bell. All these names rush in my head. 5 cops for little old me. But then I shake it out because, hey, I've done nothing wrong. I paid any tickets I've gotten and I've never been pulled over before.

*He asks me to get out the car. I get out, aware of the busy intersection of cars slowing down to see what looks like an episode of Cops. One officer tries to explain everything.

*"We ran your license and it turns out you received a summons that you never showed up for, and your license is suspended." I cut him off to stammer, "I've never received a summons. If you look at my record, I paid off every parking ticket I've gotten. If I'm so adamant about paying off tickets, why would I ignore a summons? No, there's a mistake." He shakes his head and says, "I'm sorry miss, but we have to take you in. Can you put your hands on the vehicle? We have to search you." An indignant tear creeps from my eye, as I hesitantly and disgracefully put my hands on the car. I try to breathe slow to calm myself down and to hold back the tears, only for them to pour onto my cheeks as he says, "We have to handcuff you now." I start shaking my head no and say, "Please, don't cuff me. I'll go peacefully, just don't cuff me." He says they have to, and I put my head down. I walk to the van, feeling like a runaway slave being dragged to a plantation, spirit feeling broken and just trying to figure out how this happened. The White female officer who searched me seemed to have pain in her eyes for me. I realized this van was filled with rookies, and I was a lesson on 'standard procedure.' She'll probably become emotionless like many other cops after a few years on the force, but for now, at least one person felt bad.

I get to the precinct, aware that the last time I came to one, I was hooking up an officer I knew with a free case of Redbull. They take me to the desk and get my information. A male officer held my arm as if I was going to run away and as if they took me in for armed robbery. I was relieved when he passes me to the female officer who just lightly held my arm.

*I get put into a cell with another young woman, and I breathe a sigh of relief. I had these images of masculine women lined against the wall, looking at me like a piece of brown-skinned cake for the taking. I sit down on the bench, and take it all in. I'm in jail. Wow. And no one could tell me, to this day, what the summons was for and when it was given. Just that my license is suspended because of it. People sell drugs a few blocks away, and I'm in jail for something no one can quite explain.

The only thing that kept me sane was the conversation I had with the women there with me. One was there for a $15 summons she ignored back in 1997, and the other lady that later joined us had a more serious case because she spoke up on the arresting officers' use of excessive force on her son. (Because she held on to the night-stick they pressed against her neck, pinning her to a wall, they tried to say she "held on to an officer." They brought her in without shoes.) A man in the male cell next to me got arrested for ripping up a BS summons he got right in front the cops. A kid got punched in the face by a White Officer, and two other Black Officers who were standing said they "didn't see anything." It was crazy being around the things I and other poets write about. Why do people want to come here? What is it about being in a urine-scented, cramped cell that is alluring to some? Repeat offenders can't possibly get used to this, and if they do, they've got serious issues.

*The officer finally tells me after 2 hours of waiting that they're giving me a DAT (Desk Appearance Ticket). It took 7 hours to process this. I did my fingerprints, mug shots, and watched as the other prisoners were taken downtown to the court houses.

Being alone in a cell for an hour will drive you mad. How do people do that for years? Imagine, having to ask to use the bathroom, knowing someone may peak to make sure you're not doing anything like drowning yourself in toilet water or whatever they think you'll do.

*However, being there alone in my thoughts led me back to the story of Paul and Silas who were in the prison singing praises to God. The thought comforted me. I started humming Richard Smallwood's "I Give You Praise" to myself, and then I busied myself with writing a song about my situation.

They bring a sister in with me who was a kindred musical spirit: she was a songwriter who's mom called the cops on her after starting a fight with her, a mix-up that led to her being dragged to jail while wearing a pretty black blouse, jeans, and cute leather black boots. She made my time move a lot faster because we started cracking jokes on Etta James, Whitney, and on ourselves because "Now, all we need is to get shot and we can sell hip hop records. We're gangsta; we did hard time." LOL.

*At 11:00pm, I was released from the cell. Sad to leave my friend behind but glad to get away from the dirt and brown-whatever stained walls I'd been in for 8 hours. I put my coat back on, only to be handcuffed again to walk up front, as if I'd fight on the way out to my freedom. He uncuffs me at the front desk, and says under his breath, "I'm sorry about all of this. I wish I'd met you under different circumstances." It was then that I actually looked at him. Yes, he was okay looking, BUT he handcuffed me...against my will. I can never forgive him for that. Nor could I imagine telling people "I met my boyfriend when he arrested me for some BS." I have no license, and can't get it back till I appear before the judge in March. My sister picks me up, and I see all the missed calls from the guy I was supposed to meet in NYC for the movies. He waited a whole hour for me. Poor thing. :(

*Moral of the story: Well, there is a way to make the best of every situation. Nothing we go through is unbearable. Two texts for you:
1) Psalm 30:5 says, "Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning." Praise God it wasn't morning when I got out, but being that I didn't give trouble, I got out quicker than others did.
2) Proverbs 17:22 "A merry heart doeth good like a medicine, but a broken spirit drieth the bones." It would have felt much longer if I stayed in my pit of despair. Once I began trying to cheer up those around me, I felt a whole lot better, especially the sister that was there right before I got out. Often times we focus on what's wrong rather than find reasons to laugh or praise or be thankful. I went to jail and wasn't raped, killed, or harmed during my stay. (I know it wasn't going to be an episode of HBO's OZ, but still, you never know.) God put cool people around me to keep me safe and sane, and He kept a song in my heart so I didn't flip out on any of the officers. While I plan to get this arrest removed from my record, I do say that it's an experience to remember. To anyone out there involved in illegal activity, seriously, if this is step one, you do NOT want to see step two of the justice system.

BTW, as the guys walk by my cell chain-gang style while heading downtown, one burly dark-skinned guy says to the officer, "Hey, why y'all got my future wife locked up? Heehee...Don't worry, I'm coming back for you." I said, "No need. I won't be here." He replies, "Babes, you never know."

I assertively respond, "Oh, I know. I will not be back here. If you look for me, you'll be here by yourself." That made me laugh for at least an hour.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

The PT Diaries #5......The Rudeazz Cab Driver

I need a lil extra dose of Jesus on some occasions...and it seems lately, public transportation has caused me to need a gospel prescription. (This blog is completely random, I warn you, but then again, aren't blogs for venting?)


These are the PT (Public Transportation) Diaries:

Saturday:
After catching a movie late in downtown Brooklyn, I figured I'd stop by a spot where my friend would be spinning just for a bit. Being that it was late and I didn't, I hailed a cab. I give my directions, and we take off. I decided to double check the address on my Blackberry only to find that I was off by maybe 6 blocks. I yell to the Haitian cab driver my mistake and go back to my random texting. As he turns onto 5th Avenue, which is not where he's supposed to go, I correct him. He huffs and puffs and says, "You told me 5th and 1st Street. I didn't know you were talking to me." I say, "Well, I wasn't on the phone, and there are just two of us in this cab, so I don't know who else I could have been speaking to." He gives me attitude, but continues on.

As we drive I start feeling a little ill. Apologetically, I tell the cab driver in my sweetest voice to scratch all of that and drive me home. Mercy! Who told me to change my mind?

"What?? You have to be kidding? (Huff) (Puff) (Sigh)"

I get fed up and ask what the attitude is for. He says "Cause you don't know where you are going. You say, 'Here,' then 'Here.' Make up your mind."

I refute, "You are a cab driver. You drive a cab. You take me where I want to go. You get paid either way; the meter is running."

"No. It is my job to take you from point A to point B, not point C and then D."

Rather than say the four-letter words that came to mind, I loudly told him to pull over because I don't need this [insert four-letter word].

(I used the word 'crap'.)

I gave him $5 for the $4.75 and made sure he gave me my quarter.

Praise God I have a car.